I can't describe in words how amazing you are. We had your 2nd birthday at a park here in Winston-Salem, and it was dreadfully hot, but you had so much fun, and we announced to the whole family that we are expecting another baby in March. We found out in October that it's a boy! Now, our family will be complete, once he joins us.
I have so many feelings about this.
I'm scared you will think we don't love you as much. This is impossible. The love I feel for you is bigger than the universe, and I just hope you still feel that when you are having to share mommy/daddy time with baby.
I'm scared you will be jealous. Already I have had to stop picking you up. While you are still small for your age (but not too small), you do weigh about 25 pounds, which is too heavy for a 22 weeks pregnant woman to be picking up. I feel very sore when I do pick you up. I'm not going to be able to pick you up for a while after baby brother is born either. You really are a snuggle bug and you enjoy snuggling with mommy and daddy, and I hope that when baby comes, that you are able to share snuggle time without being jealous. I swear if I had extra arms, I'd hold you both.
I'm scared I'll go crazy mom. While you are an amazing little person, you do sometimes, every once in a while, have tantrums. And sometimes, no amount of calmness/bribery works, and I yell. And then I feel terrible about it. Especially since it doesn't seem to work anyway. I'm scared that when there are two of you, and you are having a tantrum, and the baby is crying, I will just go crazy. Not actual crazy, but I'm afraid I will yell and scream, and walk away. But I promise, if I do, it will not impact my love for you. Baby girl, you are my whole world and always will be.
I'm elated. I've always been so happy to have you, my girl, but I've also always wanted a boy, too. When we went in for my ultrasound, I was a ball of nerves. When the tech announced it was a boy, we were so happy. I cried. You had been saying for weeks that you were getting a "baby sister", so now we have finally got you to say "baby brother". :) And, you're good at telling us what baby brother's name is.
Milo Freeman. Freeman was my Grandfather's name, and your grandfather's middle name. Milo is just a name we love.
Milo and Zoe. You will always be my whole heart.
Here are some pictures from the last few months!
