9 DPO: Cramps

Oh Dammit.

Here I am, 9 days past ovulation, with my same 9 DPO cramps I get every month.  This puts me at 99% sure I am not pregnant.

Here's my chart if you're bored and want to see:


My Ovulation Chart

What really sucks is that it'll be another 5-6 days before I actually get my period and can start a new cycle.

On to Cycle 17.  Dammit.

Ute pains

I'm now 3-4 days past ovulation. I say 4, but fertility friend says 3. Either way I'm experiencing something new: ute pains. I know it's in my uterus because it feels like its in the same place as the cramps I had during my HSG. Of course I could be totally wrong, but whatever. 

They are sporadic, and not too painful. I just wish that every time something different happens, that I didn't trick myself and get my hopes up by thinking, "maybe this means I'm pregnant!". *sigh*

Maybe it's the entire bag of popcorn I ate at the movies tonight...

Goings on

Sunday night I took my first "trigger" shot of HCG.  This is something I was a little unsure of, mostly because I see so many people on the message board who have taken them with no response.  Of course, it could just be that the ones with a response aren't posting on that board once they're pregnant.

The shot was easy to administer (straight in the stomach!), but I have been feeling kind of blah ever since.  I can definitely tell that it has jump started ovulation though.  Yay, ovulation cramps!  And my basal body temp went up today. If that's truly the case, we had good timing (doctor's orders!).

Keeping my fingers crossed that this was worth the wait! And the price of the shot..

Things I learned at the doctor's office this morning.

Things I learned at today's HSG appointment.

1) The gown goes on with the opening in the back.

2) The "no cell phones" in the doctor's office thing is a myth.

3) When a doctor says "should reduce discomfort", what he means is "not really going to".

4) I have a heart shaped uterus. I still don't know if that's a bad thing or not.

5) If I feel a "pop" inside of me, it's going to hurt a lot. Like, a lot.

6) Ow.

7) Seriously, ow.

8) My husband's swimmers are "excellent".

9) My tubes are clear.. now.

My doctor is very confident that we'll get pregnant soon.  Let's hope he's right.  In the meantime, I have an ultrasound on Friday to check for follies and such.  I'm just glad that HSG is over! Let the fun part of trying to conceive commence!

Here we go.

I decided it was high time to start writing down what's going on with my husband and myself and the ups and downs of our journey to have a baby.  

Our story starts back in May of 2012.  We had been married for a year and a half, and I was 30 and my husband 29.  We decided it was time for me to stop taking the pill.  We were going to "not really try, but not not try".

So, I finished out my last pack of pills, coincidentally on the same day of my last grandparent's funeral.  Of course, my first cycle off the pill was really long, which led me thinking, "hey, I must be pregnant!".  This of course got both my husband's and my hopes up. But of course, we were wrong, and it was just my body adjusting to not being on the pill.  That week or so of non-knowing was enough to put Jared and I into "trying" mode.  

Cut to February of 2013.  We'd been trying now for 8 months. I was already starting to get discouraged, and wondering if there was a problem. But then, BAM, BFP (big fat positive)! I was a few days "late" and took 2 tests, and there you go, I was pregnant.  I got very excited.  Even told my best friend, and later the next day when my husband got home, I finally got to tell him.  This was probably one of the happiest days of our lives. 

But, the next day, I miscarried.  I went to the doctor, and they did blood tests, and confirmed.  That's when I jumped on the bump message board called "Trying to Get Pregnant".  Here's where I found out that I had had a chemical pregnancy, meaning I was pregnant, but something wasn't genetically right, and I had a very early miscarriage. 

That was 8 months ago.  Since then, we have had zero BFPs. I have been doing everything I can, including charting basal body temperature, taking prenatal vitamins, using ovulation strips, etc.  

Two weeks ago I finally got in to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist.  These are the fertility doctors.  So far what I have learned is that I am textbook normal.  Normal ovulation, normal bloodtest, etc.  Right now there are one of three possibilities for why we are not pregnant.

1) Endometriosis.  I don't know enough about this to even speculate if I may have this.

2) Blocked Fallopian tubes.  I go tomorrow for an HSG (dye test & ultrasound) to check that.

3) Male infertility problems.  Jared dropped off a sample on Friday and I'm hoping to get the results anytime.


So for right now, I'm taking Femara, and I will take an Ovidrel trigger shot this month.  That is what we're doing. 

I am still in disbelief that it is taking this long.. but every single day I see and read about women going through the same situation.  I am discouraged, and encouraged at the same time.  

When my friends are getting pregnant without having to try very hard, I get very discouraged, and I'm not sure how to cope.  My best friend, who was the first person I told when I was pregnant in February, got pregnant shortly after that.  I'm happy for her, but I can't bring myself to go visit her.  It's not her fault we're having issues, but I still can't help being jealous.  

One day this will happen.   I am a very not-lucky person. But Stormageddon is coming soon, I just know it.