Our story starts back in May of 2012. We had been married for a year and a half, and I was 30 and my husband 29. We decided it was time for me to stop taking the pill. We were going to "not really try, but not not try".
So, I finished out my last pack of pills, coincidentally on the same day of my last grandparent's funeral. Of course, my first cycle off the pill was really long, which led me thinking, "hey, I must be pregnant!". This of course got both my husband's and my hopes up. But of course, we were wrong, and it was just my body adjusting to not being on the pill. That week or so of non-knowing was enough to put Jared and I into "trying" mode.
Cut to February of 2013. We'd been trying now for 8 months. I was already starting to get discouraged, and wondering if there was a problem. But then, BAM, BFP (big fat positive)! I was a few days "late" and took 2 tests, and there you go, I was pregnant. I got very excited. Even told my best friend, and later the next day when my husband got home, I finally got to tell him. This was probably one of the happiest days of our lives.
But, the next day, I miscarried. I went to the doctor, and they did blood tests, and confirmed. That's when I jumped on the bump message board called "Trying to Get Pregnant". Here's where I found out that I had had a chemical pregnancy, meaning I was pregnant, but something wasn't genetically right, and I had a very early miscarriage.
That was 8 months ago. Since then, we have had zero BFPs. I have been doing everything I can, including charting basal body temperature, taking prenatal vitamins, using ovulation strips, etc.
Two weeks ago I finally got in to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist. These are the fertility doctors. So far what I have learned is that I am textbook normal. Normal ovulation, normal bloodtest, etc. Right now there are one of three possibilities for why we are not pregnant.
1) Endometriosis. I don't know enough about this to even speculate if I may have this.
2) Blocked Fallopian tubes. I go tomorrow for an HSG (dye test & ultrasound) to check that.
3) Male infertility problems. Jared dropped off a sample on Friday and I'm hoping to get the results anytime.
So for right now, I'm taking Femara, and I will take an Ovidrel trigger shot this month. That is what we're doing.
I am still in disbelief that it is taking this long.. but every single day I see and read about women going through the same situation. I am discouraged, and encouraged at the same time.
When my friends are getting pregnant without having to try very hard, I get very discouraged, and I'm not sure how to cope. My best friend, who was the first person I told when I was pregnant in February, got pregnant shortly after that. I'm happy for her, but I can't bring myself to go visit her. It's not her fault we're having issues, but I still can't help being jealous.
One day this will happen. I am a very not-lucky person. But Stormageddon is coming soon, I just know it.
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